School x Girlfriend

I honestly now understand what them Filipino parents say about relationships " focus on your education and then have a relationship" Apparently UCLA is one of the hardest schools to get into with a 3.5 GPA + requirements, an 1800+ SAT score, and lots of EC activities. Been slacking way too much to be honest. All i wanna do is rest and just chill but there's no time for that. I got an F on my first Psych Test, i already missed 2 days of Philosophy, and i'm sleeping in my Appreciation of Dance Class. UCLA is too far for me to grasp. Why UCLA? i wanna escape from this boring town. I want to be able to work in the city where it's busy, i wanna be able to have my own place where i can just work on my car, i wanna be able to shop outside instead of staying inside on the computer, i wanna be able to explore a new place by myself or maybe even with someone. You know i'm trying to spend as much time with you as possible i sleep everyday at 2 and wake up at 8, we always have fights that affect me and my studying. And i'm sorry to say trust isn't a big component of our relationship. Few months later and i still don't have any trust. I learned in Psychology that we go through different levels of emotion and once we feel a certain pain we go back to step 1. I can honestly say i forgave you with all my might but now trust is what we're building. Maybe if you could just look me in the eyes and say you'll never ever hurt me then maybe that'll help. Maybe if you could just give me some reassurance then maybe everything will be fine. Maybe if you could just tell guys to back the fuck off cause you have a boyfriend maybe then that will show me you actually take our relationship to heart? You know i'm here working my ass off because one day when i grow up and have kids i want them to be able to do what they love. I'm not saying i don't want to become a doctor because i don't like it. I love helping kids, i love money that will take me places, i love getting what i want and working for it. But that's impossible if things keep on getting in the way. Sorry but time isn't on my side anymore.